No More Playing Small: Preparing My Mindset for What I Prayed For

For so long, I prayed for this — the approval, the opportunity, the business that actually feels like mine. I prayed for growth, for success, for doors to open. And now that they finally are, I’m realizing something important: it’s not just about getting what you asked for — it’s about becoming the person who can handle it.

I spent years in “waiting mode,” always planning and preparing, always saying, “When it happens, I’ll be ready.” But what nobody talks about is how strange it feels when it does happen — when God gives you what you prayed for, and suddenly you realize you’ve got to rise to meet it.

The Old Me Played It Safe

For years, I downplayed who I was becoming.
When I earned my bachelor’s degree in accounting, I still couldn’t bring myself to call myself an accountant.
I’d say, “I work in accounting,” or “I do bookkeeping,” but the word accountant felt too big — like it belonged to someone else. Someone more polished, more confident, more established.

The truth is, I had already become that woman — I just hadn’t allowed myself to see it yet. I’d achieved something major but was still thinking small, afraid to own it fully. I didn’t realize it then, but that’s what playing small looks like — minimizing your growth to make it more comfortable.

Now I see it differently. That version of me was still learning self-trust. She was figuring out how to believe in the same woman everyone else already saw.

Walking in What I Prayed For

Having my EFIN approved and stepping into tax season as an ERO feels like another level of becoming. But this time, I’m not hesitating to claim it.
I’m not saying, “I’m trying to be…” — I am.

This journey taught me that the blessings don’t just show up when you’re ready; they show up when it’s time to grow. And growth requires you to stop questioning your worth and start walking in your calling.

Mindset Maintenance

This season isn’t just about business — it’s about belief. The paperwork, the systems, the long nights — those are the easy parts. The real work is internal: shifting from doubt to discipline, from insecurity to intention.

I remind myself daily:
You waited for this. You prayed for this.
Now it’s time to own it.

Final Thoughts
The woman I was would’ve second-guessed this moment. The woman I am now is ready for it.

I’m no longer afraid to say who I am or to stand in what I’ve earned. From accountant to business owner, from waiting to walking — this is my becoming.

No more playing small. This is the season to step boldly into everything I prayed for.

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